stealth much?
It’s really strange how after fighting against many years of female socialization, i’m falling into everything I once believed to be the downfall of modern day society.
Since I’ve started horomones, I don’t look at other men unless I absolutely have to. I don’t want to be seen as gay or queer. If I see a man who I think is gay, I’ll immediately make it obvious that I am straight. I’m showing less emotional response to things than ever, but this isn’t intentional. Am I becoming homophobic or am I just following the gender lines that have been so brightly painted by society?
Either way, there’s no excuse for the way I’m acting. Most of my highschool friends were gay men. I haven’t severed ties with them, I’ve just lost touch since I’ve moved so many times within the past three years.
Perhaps my new found desire to be stealth is what’s prompting these changes in my behavior. I want to be stealth because now that I’ve moved, I feel like I have a fresh start, a place where only a few people know that I was born a woman.
oh the stealthiness……balance balance balance.
Testosterone and estrogen are extremely powerfull chemicals that have far more of a behavioral effect on us than many of us tend to realize. I think alof of what you’re speaking of seems pretty normal, considering your transition and where you are in it.